Dear Dendro's and KB's booster

Yes. I have my own penyunting-semangat-turun-kelas now. He is jeng jeng jeng. I like his eyes and his smile. Bagi semangat mau turun kelas tu. hehehehe... Harap-harap ni bukan perasaan yang serius. Kalau tidak, saya perlu bawa lagu Stevenson la ni nanti. Siti penanggur antara tua. Tapi kalu betul2 la macam sanggup juga saya ni. Cinta la katakan. Huahuahua... Ngok. Booster Dendro. Booster KB. Kelas lain tidak sama pula. Herm.. Tapi tidak la. Tidak bertuah dia nanti dapat saya. Why? Because this is what fruit I should reap for what I had planted before..

Saya jeles dengar satu cerita dari kawan saya. Erm.. Tidak apa. Kebahagiaan mereka kebahagiaan saya juga. Enough of one tear drops now. Keep it as a memory. Once you meet the one that once you loved, bless him because isn't blessing people is great. Isn't friend is better than deep relationship. No. I won't let that friendship gone.

One by one, leaving. From what I see. Tanpa mereka niat. Saya pun just let it be that way. No need to tell every one. Keep it by yourself. I must have that emotional smart, from what my lecturer said. Emotional smart where you can keep everything by yourself. Go for emotional smart. Deep in my heart, the heart is seeking for love, intention and attention to be loved and care. But I refuse. I don't like it. I got one now, but I can take it.

Thank you.

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid
I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

Relieve Everything In One Way by....

crying. It is just that I can do for this moment.

1st, I don't want to have any responsible in any event that I dislike.
2nd, the situation here is weird. I'm not comfortable living in this college.
3rd, hemorrhoid. I wish you will grow until level 4.
4th,not good to be shared here.
5th, not good to be shared here too.
6th, my heart is missing home.
7th, I want to have a home food.

I really want to give out everything by crying.
Die is the word always came across my mind this week. But I look at Him. But again, my faith is not very strong.
What if I die tomorrow? Many things will be end. No need to think much. Everything will go fine and smooth. I can have rest for the whole of my life. And the most important is I don't have to think about my past. The fruit that you have to reap before. I don't have to face that. I wish the last person I want to capture in mind is my mum. I don't have to see their wedding. Love won't change anything for now. It just because of me. Will be okay is not a promise because the situation was changing even we act like normal in front of others.

It Is Good To Be Home

Sampai Sibu at 1048am. My dad fetched me at the airport. On the way home, my dad asked me whether I want to buy durian or not. I said don't want but when I saw lot of longhouse people sell local fruits beside the road, they sell durian, isu(a type of durian but doesn't smell like durian), rambutan, langsat and etc. I want to isu. Then my father bought 6 buah isu and 3 durians that cost him for RM24. Quite cheap right compare to KL. At first the price for 2 isu rian is RM5. My father didn't do any tawar-menawar but that uncle secara automatik dia kasi RM4. Dia cakap, "RM4 tau meh.(RM4 also can)." Mereka suruh beli langsat. "Meli lensat Endu. Tau sepi tu. Nda meli nda ngawa.(Buy the langsat. You can try to taste it. If you don't want to buy, it is ok.)" He gave me satu gugus langsat. Tapi saya tidak beli. From that you can see how nice people in Sarawak. That is why I love Sarawak more than other places.

Sampai rumah, saya pegi check saya punya kebun saya tepi rumah dan pokok-pokok buah saya. Kebun sayur saya sudah dikasi bersihkan. Sayur-sayur yang dulu sudah mati. Ermm... Saya tau, indai saya tentu tunggu saya balik untuk uruskan kebun tu lagi nanti. Jambu batu pun banyak buah dia. Quite big in size. My lemon tree grown big already. My mata kucing tree, still the same size. Daun pun berlubang-lubang.

That afternoon, my mum came back from school. We had our lunch together. Story mory. She noticed my finger nail. It is purple in colour. hahaha... She said, " Cat ya kukut ya. Mayuh macam pengawa." I said, "Heeheheh... Nyauka habis exam ari nya ba indai."

That evening, I went to find rambutan. Heehehehe... Sedap nya rambutan. T

Dinner pun, story mory lagi. After dinner, story mory lagi sampai mereka tidur 10++pm.
Too many story to share with each other. I heard one not nice story at our longhouse. Suddenly, I realize one thing, I thanked God for giving them as my parent as they teach me with a good discipline, know how to get along with people, and respect longhouse people.

The next day, I went to school to accompany my friend to meet Cikgu Wong. I met Cikgu Dor. She asked me "How are you doing in UPM? Best?" Me answered, "Best Cikgu until I refused to go back. hahahaa.."

After that, went to Jakar. Bought myself mee kampua putih and mee tauhu. Hahahaha..

I was abandoned

Hahaha.. I was abandoned by him, the scandal. OK. Crap. He is away. Tomorrow, he will fly off to Kuching and Sarawak is not his native land ok. Balik awal daripada orang empunya tanah asal.. ceiii.. He's Sabahan. Many people misunderstood about our relationship. Yea. It is not their fault. Biasala.. Perkataan sastera dia, lumrah hidup manusia. If a boy and a girl are very close to each other and there is nothing else, but couple. BUT we are not a couple. We are just a best friend. Ya ya ya.. Tau saya apa ko mau cakap.. best friend tapi macam kapel kan ko mau cakap tu??? Tidak apa.. Tuhan dan kami dua saja tahu yang sebenar. We always said this "Kesian la bakal2 gf/bf kita nanti. Jeles dengan kita dua.. hahahahhaa". Orang yang saya minat baru-baru ni pun fikir kami kapel. adei... Ok la. Marah dia nanti saya post pasal dia.

Statement :
We are not a couple and not dating each other.
Sincerely, Debbie and scandal.

Read someone's blog. Dia always mention and talk about the same thing over and over again. Walaupun kau cakap general about that, but you have to think about others feeling. I know that is your blog. You can say anything you like there. But bear in mind you are a part of the family now. If you keep on saying that, it looks like you hate some of the family members. Hey... Past is past la. Kalau ko mau mengenang pun, sendiri sendiri la kenang. Tidak payah ko kasitau semua orang. It just like you don't or haven't respect the family members. Acceptance is there. But you? Still cannot get along with the members? Maybe ko orang yang jenis 'makai dalam' ku orang Iban. Or maybe I am a forgive-and-forget-little-one, try to do the best for others happiness especially for my own family? Because I have put my own family first after God. Some cases, maybe I'm very pengampun and forget the past just like that, but some cases no. But this is family matter. You must learn to forgive and forget. If you cannot get rid this thing, problem will be there. And I hope you delete the post before somebody else read it. The people you meant there have learnt a lot from her life. She is human. Mistake is there and I want to apologize for what that people had said and done.

I don’t forgive people because I am weak. I forgive them because I am strong enough to know people make mistakes.

~Forgive and Forget~
With love

Debbie : )

Tomorrow, final paper. Yeah!

Happy New Year 2012

Happy New Year 2012 people.
Sorry for being late for 7 days to wish this.
First post in 2012.

I have listed my 2012 resolution but don't have time to post it here.
Wait until I'm home. hehehe...


Every single person has at least one secret that would break your heart.
Yup. It is true. For me. My fault too.

Bye. Pray for my final exam. 2 more papers to go. 3 papers done, answered confidently only 1 paper not really.. 2 subjects got A already. Praise the Lord.

Post Special Untuk Ary

6/12/2011 is Ary's 21st birhtday!

We, UMB, planned to celebrate Ary's birthday on 6th December night. At 1030pm the boys asked Ary to go down to join UMB meeting, to help me kunun discuss about the Pesta Integrasi. Hahaha...

Cun-cun masa ya memang ada meeting untuk Sekretariat Kebudayaan jam 9. He thought the meeting was at 9pm because UMB is under that secretariat. The boys tried to hold him from coming down because we are not ready. At last 1030++ pm he's coming down. My room mate and I with the cake came out from somewhere there. Hahahaaahahaha... Muka Ary memang muka semangat mau turun untuk bantu saya meeting kunun2 tu..

Only 4 of us, Bugar, Jai, Durie and me sang the birthday song for Ary. The others unfortunately have to attend their fgabungan floor meeting. Kesian Aryyyyy.... Nda pa la.. Biarla kami kami saja yang nyanyi untuk Ary... Ermmm... Biarla Ary..... hahahahah.... After 11pm then other friends came. We all berbual and gathered until 12++. Hoping that Ary will have a great ending of memory on his 21^st years old.

What Ary said, " Mau tau ka? Dalam 21 tahun umur saya, ini la kek pertama saya. " I was touched by that statement OK. heeee... He really appreciate it. I can see it from his face. And for your information, it took quite a long time for him to slice his birthday cake. Hahahaha... Isn't that cuteeee????? First, because he sayang the wishes written on the cake. Second, because of the cake. Hahh.. I don't understand why he act like that. If others, the potong-memotong part is the one yang ditunggu-tunggu macam saya. Hahaha....

Inila birthday boy kami malam tu.

Kacak? Hensem? Haha. Sorry. Akan berpunya. Kan Ary?


Saya first time tengok Ary time kami Minggu Orientasi kolej. Ary jadi fasi time tu. Tapi masa minggu tu memang minggu menyampah dengan semua senior yang jadi fasi la.. Hehehe... Besa la. Lumrah minggu orientasi memang macam tu. When I become the faci for camp in school also the junior will feel the same way too. But if you get to know them better, it will change your perception towards that person 360 degree. Saya rapat dan kenal Ary time kami UMB pegi ke Melaka. Before trip tu, hermmm... jangan harap mau tegur satu sama lain walaupun dia kenal room mate saya.


Dalam banyak-banyak gambar yang paling saya suka. Saya pun tak tau kami fikir apa terhadap kek tu. Kami hanya mampu memandang dan menunggu. Hahaha....


Saya, Durie, Ary dan Pipim.


UMB

Next target adalah 2/1/2012 and 12/1/2012.

Yesterday, I experienced my first interview. What a shame.. Haaaaaaa......... I don't want to remember that moment again. I pray that I will get the scholarship if it is God's will because I want an encouragement. But if I didn't get the scholarship, thanked God for giving me the interview and the interview experiences. Please pray for it also

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Eating this asam mangga while writing this post.Kepedasan dan kemasaman yang wOw.

Last but not least,

Saya JATUH SAYANG dengan UMB dan orang-orang di bawahnya. Saya suka dengan keakraban yang ada pada kita semua. Keep it up until we die do us apart. Oh ya. Fikiran untuk masa depan, time saya kahwin, semua bff UMB mesti datang. Wajib. WAJIB. Or apa-apa majlis yang ada kaitan dengan saya. ^^

Love while you can.
Gather while you can.
Celebrate each other while you can.

Christmas!

Christmas caroling. This is the first caroling in UPM. We don't how's the perception of people here. Hope everything is going to be smoothly and fine with God surrounds us.. Amen.

I received 2 pos laju yesterday. The first one is from my home, all my personal thingy. The second one is my Christmas gift. I bought it for myself. I totally satisfied with the gift because I am not very confident buying thing by online shop. When I took the envelope from the KTDI's office, I feel something big inside. Aikk takkan saya punya necklace punya besar dia punya biji. Sekali buka got cute little white small octopus. Hermm. Is it an octopus? Not sure. Sorry because I didn't choose the one that I posted that day because haven't found this one. After day by day looking for the best one finally I found this.

My Christmas gift for my self and cute little octopus.

Just came back from K2 with my scandel. :P I have to arrange the one night stay for our Baksis programme since I can't attend the programme soon. Meaning that I am going back to Sarawak and to be specific, Sarikei. I received the news last night from my classmate. Because he called me last night during my caroling practice. My facilitator asks him to give quite a simple task for me. But it took me until 2am to finish it, just waiting for others to reply my message. Then it was completed this afternoon. My pengarah for our group and his timbalan are nice. They thanked me for what I've done. But I ask for more jobs and tasks from them. Hahaha.. Yala.. I feel guilty I can't help them during the event.

I learn one thing today. You must shake hands with them first, if you have any official thingy to be discussed with them. Hah.. Malu nya saya. Saya dah la blur2 tadi. Tak tau la apa Puan pengurus tu fikir.. Malu, malu. But I learn from my mistake.

On my way back to my dorm I saw a pos laju list name. Got my name stated there. I go to pejabat am to take my pos laju dari home. Sekali buka tengok...

Kiuttt... Ada miss you lagi.
'Our love is simple I want you back my baby.'
I don't know who choose this pocket file.

Kiuttt... Sabar hati. Kejap lagi. Dah la tadi my mum sms me telling me they arrived at Sabah already with my aunties and uncles. Hermm.. Attending my brother's wedding reception at KK. Hermm..... Punya sedih. Luckily I have a room mate yang hu ha hu ha punya. Hahaha... This few days we angkat tilam tidur atas lantai. Sejuk. Best..