Futsal Fakulti Perhutanan

2/12/2012

The day before, we had to wait for our jersey delivery until 12 midnight while I'm playing the piano at K5's hall. We tried to call but they didn't answer the phone. Then, around 11 something, they called and told me that they will be arrived at 12am.
Dia : Jersi futsal tu nanti sampai dalam jam 12.
Aku : Konfirm ke jam 12? Tadi cakap jam 1030pm. Ni dah jam 11.
Dia : Ye. Konfirm..
Aku : Kalu korang tak antar jersi tu malam ni, kite orang cancel jer tu.
and bla bla bla bla...

Sekali sampai dalam jam 12 lebih sikit la. Kenal pula si pengarah dengan orang tu. Camney la aku mauk sound2 nya. Dahla nya sik jawab kol gara2 tanga bola di stadium time Malaysia lawan Indonesia. Hah. Lagi la. Tapi nya kawan pengarah. Macam ada hormat juak timbul walopon hati ku geram. Yalah. Lain orang lain budi bahasa juga bah ya.

Ok. The day. First game, we, the organiser have to take part too. So, the girls have two teams and the boy one team. My team won for the first game compete with purple team. Ya pon agik ketawa2 gik ya. hahahahaha..One of the best moment.  Macam sik serius ja main. Menang berapa2 aku sik ingat gik. Pas ya lawan team satu gik kalah. Team B penganjur perempuan  kalah juak. Lawan geng Marion ngan Ruzy. Lucu juak main time ya. Hahaha..  Ayat2 kuar time main:
"Jangan Debbie,jangannn!!!!"
"Debbie, mihun tom yam!!"

Team lelaki, first game, kalah abis. Sapa penjaga gol? Si Timbalan Pengarah.

Tapi  Team A perempuan layak masuk suku akhir. Lawan dengan geng same batch dari BSTK. Sidak nya main nang main untuk menang la. Serius. Sampai aku accident time main. Terjatuh terduduk gik ya. Time ya agik boleh main la. I can't feel the pain yet. Banyak orang accident time main ngan team tu. hahahaha.. What a memory. Kalah juak la.

Pas ya lawan gik ngan junior geng2 ex dip Bintulu. Tok lagi la lucu. Dahla ada Iban gik main sia. Team aku, ada Sant ngan aku Iban. Mula la kami kelaka jaku Iban dia. hahaha.. Beanu2 gik ngau pangan diri. Gaduh cam budakLaugh at each other. Sempat g bergurau. Scream like yeahhh!!! Last2 kamek orang seri. Tambah minit g. Sidak nya gol, team kamek orang pun ikut suka. Nang sot-sot la time ya. Nang rasa bukan bertanding ja. Sikda gol pun kami jerit kesukaan.. Sampai budak laki pun mengolok kami menjerit2. sot...

Time PA handsome aku ya yg berik ucapan penutupan, nya madah.. "Yang team pompuan tu, dorang jerit2 kat situ tak tau gol ke tak tadi tu." Kamek orang ketawa dengar nya padah cam ya. Tentu geng2 kami nya tujukan ya.

The best of the best part was birthday Mia. That day was Mia's birthday. They bought a cake for Mia. After tiup2 lilin, it's play time!! The person who was responsible with the activity is si abang kembar. Ambik kek sapu dekat muka Mia. Ambik air tuang atas kepala Mia. Then, the next mangsa is us. Aku pun kena ngan kek ya!!!! GRRRRrrrr!!!! Balas balit aku sapu kat muka nya kena mata nya. Untung mata nya makan kek birthday. harharharh..... Serve you right. Semua main!!! hahahaha... Pengarah la. Masih bersih lagi baju dia tu. Kejar2 tak dapat. Kami dua Zamri kejar pun sik dapat. Last2 dapat juak kamek duak kejar. Sorang tarik baju, aku tolong tahan.. Pas ya panggil semua orang bagi pengarah hadiah. hahahahahahaha... Pas ya Zati mandi air anggur gara2 si abg. Adohhh...

Lot of fun for sure.

It remains as a memory. A memory doesn't fade away and will always in my memory.

Team A

AJK Pertandingan Futsal Piala Fakutli Perhutanan

Going to miss all those moment we had during the meeting, conversation we had at the faculty. Oh ya. 1/3 of the AJK is junior from BSTK. The rest are BSP students. Through this, we knew each other well and we are friends. Dari tak kenal, jadi kenal. And the faculty will be noisy because of our laugh and joke everytime we met each other.. hahaha.


Till then. Looking forward for the next activity with them.

Mimpi Yg Sempurna

Malam 26/11 ari ya, aku termimpi pasal miak tok. Miak fakulti ku. YB dalam fakulti aku. Aku sik tauk camney nda kah aku boleh termimpi pasal nya. Sik da juak ku minat ngan nya. Just ku kenal, kawan-kawan ngan nya sebab nya satu kelas aku. Dalam mimpi ya, Sheila bagi surat ngan aku madah surat ya dari miak ya. Padahal Sheila yang minat ngan miak ya tapi dalam mimpi aku juak yg kena. 

Aku buka la surat ya. Dalam surat ya ada kad dengan surat. Dalam surat ya, aku nanga perkataan cinta, cinta ja. Perkataan lain ku sik tanga. Ya la aku simpan balit surat ya pas nya cari nya. Nya aku cari nya kat satu tempat, tempat ya macam tempat jual makan-makan and nya keja sia.

Aku bagi nya surat ya tadi. Camtok la perbualan ya.

Me : Ape maksud surat ni? * sambil engkah surat ya depan nya.

Nya : *Dengan sweet nya madah* Jum. Kite bincang kat luar. 

Nya jalan g depan tapi aku sik gerak. Nya pandang belakang tengok aku sik gerak-gerak kat sia sambil nya angguk kan kepala nyuruh aku ikut nya.

 Pas ya aku terbangun.. Lucu. Sempat juak aku pelik dlm mimpi ya kenak guna surat2 sedangkan ada fb,hp semua.. 

Rindu zaman-zaman surat cinta.

Give and take

Some people only know to give or take. But most of people love to take but not give. Same thing goes to this particular people. They only know how to remind or request us to bring this and that from the hometown but they didn't bring any for us. It is not that I want to be that stingy. Tapi faham faham la. Jangan la mengharapkan orang saja bawa tapi kita bawa juga la. Walaupun benda tu biasa2 saja. At least ada juga benda untuk dilepak sama kawan2.

Ada satu cerita.. Pernah saya minta dia bawa apa2 makanan dari tempat dia..  Tapi dia bagi alasan itu ini. Tapi kalau dia suruh kami bawa itu ini, nang kena full-filled nya mpun request.
Sometimes malu juak aku tanga sida yang pandai take and take ya.

Ya la. Kadang2 malu juak aku mun mau pinjam duit, barang etc dari orang. Walaupun setakat pinjam bukan take terus.

Always reminding my self to give and take. Give and take. Give and take.

I learnt and made mistake. I learnt to give and take.

*Lesson learned*

Sebana Ati

1. Mun pakei barang orang, lepas pakai.. kemas balik macam sebelum diguna. Sebab aku bukan sik suka orang perlekehkan barang aku. Tapi kalu aku perlekehkan barang ku sendiri, takpa.. Guna memang boleh. Tapi paham2 la susun balik.

2. Baru jumpa ok ja.. Tapi bila limpas saya, senyum ja sambil jalan terus. Tidak berhenti bertegur sapa. 2 kali dah. Aku baru mau ok2 ja tapi sidak ya buat macam ya. Baru mau bersangka baik2 tapi buat gik. Sapa nda kecik ati. Sedih ku tauk. Dahla orang2 ya bukan calang2 orang ngan ku...Sedih..Kecewa. Teramat sedih bah. Tiap kali aku jumpa kawan kan, mereka dah senyum dari jauh terus minta salam. Dia langsung teda.

Salah ku juak kali ganggu persahabatan daknya. Aku datang terus rapat ngan sida ya menyebabkan hubungan sahabat mereka jauh.

It's All About You - MCFly

I read an old conversation between us in the facebook.

"last night i dream of u...yesterday also i dream of u...bfore yesterday i also dream of u...i always dream of u...2night,i want to dream of a , b , c la...." One of the old conversation.

"hen xiang nian wo shi ma?:p" Another one. 

The sad moment when you find an old conversation between you and someone you don't talk to anymore. 

It is not like we don't talk to each other anymore, but we are not that close and we have 'something' unspoken.

If someone loves you, you wouldn't have to beg them to stay, they'd know that's where they belong.

Maybe, it is true. Like what Jimbat said, berhenti berharap if you don't want to get hurt. 

I love you; I just haven't told you yet.

A few years ago, yes. Until now, maybe. I regret because of the unspoken words. I'm waiting for you to do the first step and because of that waiting, it leaves a scar.

Don’t look into the past, because you’ve already been there. Focus on the future since that’s where you’re going. 

I keep on trying, but I failed. You see, till today, I'm still talking about you, the same thing.

Last night, I dreamed of you. In the dream, I saw you smile with the cookies I baked. The smile that still remain in my eyes. 

Forest Camp

Actually, the tittle related to what story that I want to write here. After we sat for our final exam, we went for forest camp at Ayer Hitam for 2 weeks. Small matter - Forest camp. 24/6/2012-7/7/2012.

Until today, I keep on thinking why that guy do something like that. Something what? Some of the students are Christians including me and him. There must be AJK that will responsible with the students' welfare. The AJK keep on posting asking the church service on our forest camp group. I didn't saw him reply the post. I did reply 2 or more but less than 10 and the rest I just chat with the AJK asking and handle those thing. But I don't know whether he talked or not with the AJK before this about going to church. That one, I'm not sure.

During the camp, the AJK keep asking me how many students will go to the church and which church are we going. Camp commandant, vice camp commandant, urusetia, and ketua fasi were always calling to discuss about this thing. I know all the discussion and the information because they were telling me. I informed all the information given with the Christian's students. 

Nak dekat2 Sunday, on our second last discussion with the commandant, suddenly you tegur saya kenapa tidak ajak dia pergi jumpa commandant tu. He is not angry but he looks unsatisfied with me. I was looking for you that time but you said you are busy because you want to accompany me if the AJK were looking for me. You called out for me and asking me what they told me. I'm quite surprise for what you said to me and I still remember the words. "Kenapa ko tidak panggil saya masa jumpa mereka? blablabla *with unsatisfied voice* Jadi, sapa bawa hp antara kita? Nanti saya jumpa kem komanden ko ikut saya." And I answered me because THEY SAID they will give me my phone for transport arrangement after church service but not sure yet how they arrange it.

One chinese girl also siding him. Macam sokong apa dia cakap la. Because on that Saturday night, I met up with  the Christian's students. Before I speak even a words, she spoke first. She told what I told to her and him before this. She said " If you guys have any questions, you can ask tet. JUST REFER TO ONE PERSON ONLY." He was not there because of busy and he sent that girl to inform what I informed them before this. Oh my... Aku pun terdiam tanpa kata. I asked her why like that? The commandant always update everything with me. And you met the commandant or etc without me, not just like what you said to me that night.

'Sempat juak aku reflect diri ku. 'Apa aku tersilap buat tu? Why they condemn me?' In front of others gik ya. And they detect all the misunderstood there. I felt very bad you know and ashamed of myself. This is about religious and they done something like that. Ya I know my religious is not strong enough. But why don't they give me a support in doing that. I'm not good in sharing God's words but I may be can be good in other way example like those up there. Actually at first I don't want to handle this thing because going to church or not during the camp for me doesn't matter at all. But seems no body take in charge and as the AJK keep asking on the fb, so I volunteer myself to be orang perantaraan dengan peserta dan pihak kem. 

Is it because you want to be the leader so that you can have your phone? - The reason that popped in my mind.

Then, you handled on that Sunday. Most of the hard thing and I succeed in doing it is being rationalized with you and also her. Oh ya... God wants me to upgrade my humanity. 

This is my side of view and I don't know what is his and hers. Maybe I did mistakes there. I don't know.

Post Rindu

Mum, I miss you guys a lot.  I miss home. I need you to talk with me. Even I have SR messaging and calling me but still I want you. Where else I can go. Who should I find here. As I don't have no body here because of misunderstanding and the relationship is very awkward. It is hard for to express my real feeling in front of them. I don't know where and who mum.  I cannot stand the exam pressure and other minor pressure. I know I have finished my 3 papers and 3 more to go. 2 papers 4 credit hour. I need to push up my self to study that 2 subjects. Mum, in front of you, I pretend to be strong. Behind you, I am weak. I am crying now.