Futsal Fakulti Perhutanan

2/12/2012

The day before, we had to wait for our jersey delivery until 12 midnight while I'm playing the piano at K5's hall. We tried to call but they didn't answer the phone. Then, around 11 something, they called and told me that they will be arrived at 12am.
Dia : Jersi futsal tu nanti sampai dalam jam 12.
Aku : Konfirm ke jam 12? Tadi cakap jam 1030pm. Ni dah jam 11.
Dia : Ye. Konfirm..
Aku : Kalu korang tak antar jersi tu malam ni, kite orang cancel jer tu.
and bla bla bla bla...

Sekali sampai dalam jam 12 lebih sikit la. Kenal pula si pengarah dengan orang tu. Camney la aku mauk sound2 nya. Dahla nya sik jawab kol gara2 tanga bola di stadium time Malaysia lawan Indonesia. Hah. Lagi la. Tapi nya kawan pengarah. Macam ada hormat juak timbul walopon hati ku geram. Yalah. Lain orang lain budi bahasa juga bah ya.

Ok. The day. First game, we, the organiser have to take part too. So, the girls have two teams and the boy one team. My team won for the first game compete with purple team. Ya pon agik ketawa2 gik ya. hahahahaha..One of the best moment.  Macam sik serius ja main. Menang berapa2 aku sik ingat gik. Pas ya lawan team satu gik kalah. Team B penganjur perempuan  kalah juak. Lawan geng Marion ngan Ruzy. Lucu juak main time ya. Hahaha..  Ayat2 kuar time main:
"Jangan Debbie,jangannn!!!!"
"Debbie, mihun tom yam!!"

Team lelaki, first game, kalah abis. Sapa penjaga gol? Si Timbalan Pengarah.

Tapi  Team A perempuan layak masuk suku akhir. Lawan dengan geng same batch dari BSTK. Sidak nya main nang main untuk menang la. Serius. Sampai aku accident time main. Terjatuh terduduk gik ya. Time ya agik boleh main la. I can't feel the pain yet. Banyak orang accident time main ngan team tu. hahahaha.. What a memory. Kalah juak la.

Pas ya lawan gik ngan junior geng2 ex dip Bintulu. Tok lagi la lucu. Dahla ada Iban gik main sia. Team aku, ada Sant ngan aku Iban. Mula la kami kelaka jaku Iban dia. hahaha.. Beanu2 gik ngau pangan diri. Gaduh cam budakLaugh at each other. Sempat g bergurau. Scream like yeahhh!!! Last2 kamek orang seri. Tambah minit g. Sidak nya gol, team kamek orang pun ikut suka. Nang sot-sot la time ya. Nang rasa bukan bertanding ja. Sikda gol pun kami jerit kesukaan.. Sampai budak laki pun mengolok kami menjerit2. sot...

Time PA handsome aku ya yg berik ucapan penutupan, nya madah.. "Yang team pompuan tu, dorang jerit2 kat situ tak tau gol ke tak tadi tu." Kamek orang ketawa dengar nya padah cam ya. Tentu geng2 kami nya tujukan ya.

The best of the best part was birthday Mia. That day was Mia's birthday. They bought a cake for Mia. After tiup2 lilin, it's play time!! The person who was responsible with the activity is si abang kembar. Ambik kek sapu dekat muka Mia. Ambik air tuang atas kepala Mia. Then, the next mangsa is us. Aku pun kena ngan kek ya!!!! GRRRRrrrr!!!! Balas balit aku sapu kat muka nya kena mata nya. Untung mata nya makan kek birthday. harharharh..... Serve you right. Semua main!!! hahahaha... Pengarah la. Masih bersih lagi baju dia tu. Kejar2 tak dapat. Kami dua Zamri kejar pun sik dapat. Last2 dapat juak kamek duak kejar. Sorang tarik baju, aku tolong tahan.. Pas ya panggil semua orang bagi pengarah hadiah. hahahahahahaha... Pas ya Zati mandi air anggur gara2 si abg. Adohhh...

Lot of fun for sure.

It remains as a memory. A memory doesn't fade away and will always in my memory.

Team A

AJK Pertandingan Futsal Piala Fakutli Perhutanan

Going to miss all those moment we had during the meeting, conversation we had at the faculty. Oh ya. 1/3 of the AJK is junior from BSTK. The rest are BSP students. Through this, we knew each other well and we are friends. Dari tak kenal, jadi kenal. And the faculty will be noisy because of our laugh and joke everytime we met each other.. hahaha.


Till then. Looking forward for the next activity with them.

Mimpi Yg Sempurna

Malam 26/11 ari ya, aku termimpi pasal miak tok. Miak fakulti ku. YB dalam fakulti aku. Aku sik tauk camney nda kah aku boleh termimpi pasal nya. Sik da juak ku minat ngan nya. Just ku kenal, kawan-kawan ngan nya sebab nya satu kelas aku. Dalam mimpi ya, Sheila bagi surat ngan aku madah surat ya dari miak ya. Padahal Sheila yang minat ngan miak ya tapi dalam mimpi aku juak yg kena. 

Aku buka la surat ya. Dalam surat ya ada kad dengan surat. Dalam surat ya, aku nanga perkataan cinta, cinta ja. Perkataan lain ku sik tanga. Ya la aku simpan balit surat ya pas nya cari nya. Nya aku cari nya kat satu tempat, tempat ya macam tempat jual makan-makan and nya keja sia.

Aku bagi nya surat ya tadi. Camtok la perbualan ya.

Me : Ape maksud surat ni? * sambil engkah surat ya depan nya.

Nya : *Dengan sweet nya madah* Jum. Kite bincang kat luar. 

Nya jalan g depan tapi aku sik gerak. Nya pandang belakang tengok aku sik gerak-gerak kat sia sambil nya angguk kan kepala nyuruh aku ikut nya.

 Pas ya aku terbangun.. Lucu. Sempat juak aku pelik dlm mimpi ya kenak guna surat2 sedangkan ada fb,hp semua.. 

Rindu zaman-zaman surat cinta.

Give and take

Some people only know to give or take. But most of people love to take but not give. Same thing goes to this particular people. They only know how to remind or request us to bring this and that from the hometown but they didn't bring any for us. It is not that I want to be that stingy. Tapi faham faham la. Jangan la mengharapkan orang saja bawa tapi kita bawa juga la. Walaupun benda tu biasa2 saja. At least ada juga benda untuk dilepak sama kawan2.

Ada satu cerita.. Pernah saya minta dia bawa apa2 makanan dari tempat dia..  Tapi dia bagi alasan itu ini. Tapi kalau dia suruh kami bawa itu ini, nang kena full-filled nya mpun request.
Sometimes malu juak aku tanga sida yang pandai take and take ya.

Ya la. Kadang2 malu juak aku mun mau pinjam duit, barang etc dari orang. Walaupun setakat pinjam bukan take terus.

Always reminding my self to give and take. Give and take. Give and take.

I learnt and made mistake. I learnt to give and take.

*Lesson learned*

Sebana Ati

1. Mun pakei barang orang, lepas pakai.. kemas balik macam sebelum diguna. Sebab aku bukan sik suka orang perlekehkan barang aku. Tapi kalu aku perlekehkan barang ku sendiri, takpa.. Guna memang boleh. Tapi paham2 la susun balik.

2. Baru jumpa ok ja.. Tapi bila limpas saya, senyum ja sambil jalan terus. Tidak berhenti bertegur sapa. 2 kali dah. Aku baru mau ok2 ja tapi sidak ya buat macam ya. Baru mau bersangka baik2 tapi buat gik. Sapa nda kecik ati. Sedih ku tauk. Dahla orang2 ya bukan calang2 orang ngan ku...Sedih..Kecewa. Teramat sedih bah. Tiap kali aku jumpa kawan kan, mereka dah senyum dari jauh terus minta salam. Dia langsung teda.

Salah ku juak kali ganggu persahabatan daknya. Aku datang terus rapat ngan sida ya menyebabkan hubungan sahabat mereka jauh.

It's All About You - MCFly

I read an old conversation between us in the facebook.

"last night i dream of u...yesterday also i dream of u...bfore yesterday i also dream of u...i always dream of u...2night,i want to dream of a , b , c la...." One of the old conversation.

"hen xiang nian wo shi ma?:p" Another one. 

The sad moment when you find an old conversation between you and someone you don't talk to anymore. 

It is not like we don't talk to each other anymore, but we are not that close and we have 'something' unspoken.

If someone loves you, you wouldn't have to beg them to stay, they'd know that's where they belong.

Maybe, it is true. Like what Jimbat said, berhenti berharap if you don't want to get hurt. 

I love you; I just haven't told you yet.

A few years ago, yes. Until now, maybe. I regret because of the unspoken words. I'm waiting for you to do the first step and because of that waiting, it leaves a scar.

Don’t look into the past, because you’ve already been there. Focus on the future since that’s where you’re going. 

I keep on trying, but I failed. You see, till today, I'm still talking about you, the same thing.

Last night, I dreamed of you. In the dream, I saw you smile with the cookies I baked. The smile that still remain in my eyes. 

Forest Camp

Actually, the tittle related to what story that I want to write here. After we sat for our final exam, we went for forest camp at Ayer Hitam for 2 weeks. Small matter - Forest camp. 24/6/2012-7/7/2012.

Until today, I keep on thinking why that guy do something like that. Something what? Some of the students are Christians including me and him. There must be AJK that will responsible with the students' welfare. The AJK keep on posting asking the church service on our forest camp group. I didn't saw him reply the post. I did reply 2 or more but less than 10 and the rest I just chat with the AJK asking and handle those thing. But I don't know whether he talked or not with the AJK before this about going to church. That one, I'm not sure.

During the camp, the AJK keep asking me how many students will go to the church and which church are we going. Camp commandant, vice camp commandant, urusetia, and ketua fasi were always calling to discuss about this thing. I know all the discussion and the information because they were telling me. I informed all the information given with the Christian's students. 

Nak dekat2 Sunday, on our second last discussion with the commandant, suddenly you tegur saya kenapa tidak ajak dia pergi jumpa commandant tu. He is not angry but he looks unsatisfied with me. I was looking for you that time but you said you are busy because you want to accompany me if the AJK were looking for me. You called out for me and asking me what they told me. I'm quite surprise for what you said to me and I still remember the words. "Kenapa ko tidak panggil saya masa jumpa mereka? blablabla *with unsatisfied voice* Jadi, sapa bawa hp antara kita? Nanti saya jumpa kem komanden ko ikut saya." And I answered me because THEY SAID they will give me my phone for transport arrangement after church service but not sure yet how they arrange it.

One chinese girl also siding him. Macam sokong apa dia cakap la. Because on that Saturday night, I met up with  the Christian's students. Before I speak even a words, she spoke first. She told what I told to her and him before this. She said " If you guys have any questions, you can ask tet. JUST REFER TO ONE PERSON ONLY." He was not there because of busy and he sent that girl to inform what I informed them before this. Oh my... Aku pun terdiam tanpa kata. I asked her why like that? The commandant always update everything with me. And you met the commandant or etc without me, not just like what you said to me that night.

'Sempat juak aku reflect diri ku. 'Apa aku tersilap buat tu? Why they condemn me?' In front of others gik ya. And they detect all the misunderstood there. I felt very bad you know and ashamed of myself. This is about religious and they done something like that. Ya I know my religious is not strong enough. But why don't they give me a support in doing that. I'm not good in sharing God's words but I may be can be good in other way example like those up there. Actually at first I don't want to handle this thing because going to church or not during the camp for me doesn't matter at all. But seems no body take in charge and as the AJK keep asking on the fb, so I volunteer myself to be orang perantaraan dengan peserta dan pihak kem. 

Is it because you want to be the leader so that you can have your phone? - The reason that popped in my mind.

Then, you handled on that Sunday. Most of the hard thing and I succeed in doing it is being rationalized with you and also her. Oh ya... God wants me to upgrade my humanity. 

This is my side of view and I don't know what is his and hers. Maybe I did mistakes there. I don't know.

Post Rindu

Mum, I miss you guys a lot.  I miss home. I need you to talk with me. Even I have SR messaging and calling me but still I want you. Where else I can go. Who should I find here. As I don't have no body here because of misunderstanding and the relationship is very awkward. It is hard for to express my real feeling in front of them. I don't know where and who mum.  I cannot stand the exam pressure and other minor pressure. I know I have finished my 3 papers and 3 more to go. 2 papers 4 credit hour. I need to push up my self to study that 2 subjects. Mum, in front of you, I pretend to be strong. Behind you, I am weak. I am crying now. 

Gawai 2012 4

Sambung cerita 2/6 ya.

Lepas habis makan, time untuk sukaneka gik. Kami mau balik dah. Mun sik, ada la kami orang embak hamper besar sigek or dua ya sebab Nisha ngan Juman register pertandingan karaoke. Ku duduk tepi mak Nakun. Berbual la kami dua. Muda ari mak aku mak Nakun ya. Time kami balik, shake hand ngan mak Nakun dan kawan lain. Aunty Da sik da time ya. Nya pegi tandas. Sant suruh dak nya sampai pesan terima kasih kat Auntie Da ya. Pas ya kami balik, hantar Nisha, Juman, Pad, last sekali Sant. Time balik hantar Sant ya, dalam pukul 7 lebih, abang ku kol. Nanya sine aku koh. 

Sampai sampai jak kat rumah panjang ku, semua orang dah ready. Aunties, uncles, cousins pun semua dah sampai. Orang tuan rumah lagi lambat sampai. Sambut birthday Amber 1 tahun. Cucu first bapa ku ya. hehehe.. Suka gilak si Amber. Happy ja muka nya. Habis tiup lilin, masa untuk makan. Habis makan, entertainment time. Ngajat orang ulu dari aunty ku. Pas ya orang rumah panjang kami. Nyuruh kazen laki kecik Tahun 4 ya ngajat. Ada sorang gik kazen laki kecik gik, baru tadika 2 mun sik silap. Nya sik mauk. Malu. hehehee.. Mak nya mauk berik nya RM2 mun nya ngajat, tapi nya sik mauk, nya minta 50 sen. hahahaha... Lucu kazen-kazen ku.

  

Kazen mazen ku semua laki sebelah bapa.  4 orang ja perempuan.

Tu kazen ku sorang gik. Sangat gemuk. Best bila ko duduk atas nya.

Pas habis ngajat, time untuk karaoke. Sida tukang jaga PA sistem nyuruh bapa ku jadi pembuka karaoke. Bapa ku sik mau, (kunun ja sik mauk tu) hahaha.. Bapa nyuruh aku. Hah. Aunties and cousins pun nyuruh aku nyanyi sebab dak nya sik kala-kala dengar ku karaoke. Aku ajak Dunggau duet ngan aku. hehehe. Malu aku. Siap tepuk tangan gik sidak aunty ku ya. ish.. hahaha.. Malu tapi mahu. Lagu Bungai Ambai Kesulai gik embak kamek duak. Pas habis, tepuk tangan juak. Apai Mary karaoke lepas ya 2 lagu duet. Nya ajak aku karaoke ngan nya. Bah. Apa gik. Lagu Pergilah Sayang ngan Doa Buat Kekasih. Bapa ku ada nyanyi juak, kakak ipar ku nyanyi juak mbak lagu Tanak Kampung aku disuruh dak nya bejoget, kakak ku ngan Amber karaoke juak mbak lagu Keling Ati. Mak, abang, abang ipar ku jak sik da nyanyi. Mak ku sik kala karaoke. Abang ku anti sosial. Abang ipar ku semadi sik da lagu cina, mun ada lagu cina, ku rasa karaoke juak nya tok. Penutup ya, ku ngan Dunggau juak karaoke. Embak lagu I Love You Pengabis Ati.

Pas sikda orang gik, ku balit rumah, mandi, tidur. Belum mandi gik ku. Pulang dari ngabang sik sempat ku mandi. Mak bapa tidur di rumah panjang. Puas o ku begawai kali tok.

Gawai 2012 3

2/6/2012

Pagi ya awal ku bangun dalam pukul 7 cam ya. Awal ku bangun sejak ku sampai Sarawak ari ya. Fikir-fikir rajin ke sik pergi ngabang rumah Nakun. Ari ya ku dah janji mauk datang. Ngabang rumah Cikgu Dor gik. Aku agik gago-gago sebelah rumah ya. Sik tauk mauk polah apa. Cari gaduh ngan Amber. Pas ya ku terima mesej dari Cikgu Wong madah nyuruh mek orang jak pegi ngabang rumah Cikgu Dor. Mesej gik Juman madah nya dah nunggu kat Jakar. Aku kol Sant, nya baru bangun tidur. Ya ku nanya nya, mun kita aja ngabang mauk sik? Nya baru bangun tidur, nya madah auk. Agi juak ku baring-baring gaduh ngan Amber. Tengok jam hampir jam 10 baru ku pegi mandi terus jalan ambik Juman kat Jakar. 

Lepas ya, ngabang rumah Sant lok kami duak Juman. Makan-makan. hehehe.. Ngirup juak sikit. Lepas ya, kami tiga Sant pergi rumah Pad ambik Pad. Ngabang rumah Pad makan kek nya polah. Pas ya, teringat Nisha, kol nya ngajak nya ngabang. Pegi pasar ambik Nisha. Lama juak nunggu pompuan tu besiap. Herm... Terus direct pegi rumah Cikgu Dor di Saratok. Begosip bercerita berketawa bertanya dan banyak lagi. Satu jam lebih di rumah Cikgu ya. Minum segelas kecik gik. Nasib pala sik hang. Keluar nama Stephen Reman. Terus kami duak Acha ketawa. Kami duak ja tauk kisah sebenar. Semua heran, cikgu Dor lagi la. Nya mauk korek rahsia dari Acha kelak nya madah.

 Pas ya pegi rumah Nakun gik kat Rh Insol, Kerubong. Sampai sia masuk dalam, ku fikir camni ku reverse kereta kelak. Ku reverse reverse sia, herm.. Panik dah ku. Dah la semua orang rumah panjang ya keluar tengok kami semua. Sampai mak cik sorang ya kami panggil Auntie Da tolong tengok saya reverse. Last-last dapat juak. huh. Terus kami masuk bilik Nakun. Semua family Nakun ada kat sia. Sida nya keluarkan makanan-makanan yang ada. First, gerenti la tuak. Beri inik Nakun sikit jak. hehehe.. Pas ya makan mee, pulut dalam buluh dan banyak gik makanan. Malu ku mak nya keluar banyak makanan. Dah la sida yang lain macam sik mauk makan, malu or what, not sure la mereka ya. Aku makan jak la. Orang dah beri kita makanan, makan jak. Takut mereka fikir kami sombong sik mauk makan. Nakun tok best friend aku. Nya duduk belakang aku dalam kelas. Selalu ja dengar luahan-luahan rasa dari aku. Pernah nanga ku nangis. Nya masuk kelas kami orang time form 4. Form 4 sik rapat gilak mek duak. Form 5 baru mek duak rapat.

 Andan Chua ngan Nexson Banyah satu rumah panjang ngan Nakun. Nyuruh Nakun panggil dak duak datang sia. Andan ya baru sampai dari Kuching. Masuk-masuk ja nya, nya terkejut nanga aku dan lain-lain, shake hand ngan family Nakum pas ya antara kami lima, saya yang first dia shake hand walaupun yang lain lebih dekat dengan dia. Well.. Aku kan baik. Jahat-jahat pon aku, tapi aku jadi kawan ngan dak nya lepas habis form 5. Sebelum habis form 5, ney da kami tok berkawan. Salah ku la ya. Erm. Bukan salah aku, salah position yang orang bagi kat aku. Banyah pula masuk bilik Nakun. Skandal ku dolok tok. hahaha.. Skandal time sekolah-sekolah. Nya diam jak. Memang dari dolok nya cam ya. 

Sida family Nakun ajak  mek orang ngabang rumah panjang satu lagi untuk berbalas-balas ngabang sebab rumah panjang ya tadi dah ngabang pergi rumah panjang dak nya. Malas uti ku kami Iban. Saya mauk jak sebab mauk nanga sida nya begawai kat sitok. Ney aku pernah datang Kerubong sitok. Nasib ku sekolah kat SMK Sungai Paoh ya, banyak juak kawan ku kat Sarikei tok. Tapi yang lain macam sik mauk jak. Entahla. Mulut madah mauk tapi ati mauk kali. hehehehe.. Keluar ja kami dari bilik Nakun ya, semua orang rumah panjang ya mengajak kami. huhuhu.. Ya la best nya budi bahasa orang kami ngan tetamu. Sidak sik nyuruh kami balit. Sampai kami lari-lari masuk kereta, Auntie Da ya pun ikut, naik kereta dan ambik kunci kereta. Hahaha... Terus kami semua blur-blur sik tauk mauk polah apa gik. Hahahahahaha... Last-last semua pun setuju ikut ngabang. Kami duduk kat ruai nunggu orang rumah panjang bersiap. Lama juak sidak tok bersiap sampai Pad ngan Sant yang bukan orang rumah panjang ya panggil orang rumah panjang tok bersiap cepat. Lucu lucu. Ku kol bapa ku madah balit lambat. Nasib nya nyuruh.

 

Kami nunggu orang rumah panjang Nakun get ready pegi ngabang.

Cantik o rumah panjang Nakun. Kaler ruai sidak nya cantik.

Ku minta kunci kereta ya kat Auntie Da ya. Nya madah kunci sik da ngan nya. Kat tuai rumah nya padah. Adeh.. Pas ya ku ugut acah-acah ja ngan si Nakun nyuruh nya ambik kunci kereta kat Auntie Da ya. Tambah gik ngan bantuan sidak Sant. Sekali tengok kunci ya kat Nakun. Ku tumbuk juak Nakun ya kelak. Mbak kereta pegi rumah panjang ya walau pun dekat jak. Ya la.. Mek orang sik dapat lama kelak bah. Sambil nunggu orang rumah panjang sigek ya ready, mek orang ambik gambar, main mercun. Abis ucapan dari dua-dua tuai rumah aktiviti makan gik. Lain cara orang rumah panjang tu serve. Different places have their own way in serving guests. Ya la yang ku mau observe. 

 

Tu la batch SPM 2009 ku.

 

Berkumpul lok. Main mercun. Rumah pink ya tempat kami mauk pegi ngabang ya. Nunggu rumah panjang ya get ready ngan 'ai basu kaki' sidak nya. Best. Kat rumah panjang tuk, Auntie Da jaga kami semua. hehehe...

 

Tu la ruai RH Meringgai. Jumpa gik kawan satu sekolah kat sitok. Laki duduk seberang pompuan duduk sebelah.

 

Tu la makanan yang mereka hidangkan kat kami. Ada gik sebenar nya. Tapi malu mauk tangkap gambar. Banyak makanan lepas ya. Ni baru permulaan. Ikan masak kunyit ya sedap. 

Time gawai tu la orang yang single selalu cari gf/bf. Sebab banyak sangat tetamu datang dari sana sini. Time Gawai juga semua family kumpul. Kazen mazen, ipar duai, semua la. Miss it!!!

To Be Continued...

Gawai 2012 2

1hb Jun, ada program Aman Kampus. Program pelajar IPTA IPTS Semenanjung Sarawak. Kena beri baju free. Pegi buat ranyai, tolong ikat keropok, air kotak dan lain-lain. Tengah hari tu, pelajar-pelajar sampai diberi tuak/air bergas. Banyak juak students ya. Panas gilak pakei baju ya terus ku tukar balit pakei baju t ku mpun. Tengok tv sekali indai madah Cikgu Wong dah sampai. Aku jenguk keluar sekali ku nanga ada sida Pad n Sant. Terus ku jerit kesukaan di pintu. Tapi yang sik best anak cikgu ku ya ngan dak nya juak. Tension aku ngan nya kelak. Adeh. Sik selesa ku mun nya ada. Selalu ja jeles mun ku or kamek orang rapat ngan cikgu ya. Bukan sekali atau duak, berkali-kali dah aku tengok nya sik selesa ngan aku la terutamanya. Aku pula yang serba salah. Sant sama Pad ajak pergi rumah Juman lepas pegi rumah ku. Erm... Fikir-fikir ku. Takut anak nya sik suka aku ikut cikgu ya bah. Tapi ku mauk juak jumpa Juman. Sikpa la.. Demi Juman ku tebalkan dan kentalkan juak muka dan semangat ku. Lepas pegi berapa rumah students lain di rumah panjang Juman, cikgu hantar saya balik.

 

Sampai ja rumah panjang, indai madah bisi 5 orang anak angkat nya. hehehehehe... Semua laki.3 orang memang diagihkan kat kami tapi 2 orang ya tambahan. Aku ikut Amber pegi main alat muzik tradisional kat depan bilik tuai rumah. Main engkerumung dengan Amber dan budak-budak kecik lain. Aku la yang tua sia. Ngulu ka orang. Tiba-tiba ja ada orang datang duduk tepi. Urus setia program ya. Nya mau belajar main ya juak.  Malam ya, ada 'ngetas ranyai'. Saya pun join ngetas ranyai bila mak cik sorang ya nyuruh aku. Ngetas ranyai ya perlu ngajat. Tapi saya tidak ngajat, saya jalan-jalan ja siap siap dengan topi dan parang ilang. Rock la ku. hahaha... Ada sorang anak angkat mak ku ya, minta duet ngan aku. Dari tadi petang nya ajak ku berbual. Malam ya tidur sebelah Amber ja. Letih. Tengah-tengah malam ku dengar orang bising-bising di luar. Indai kejutkan aku nyuruh ku bangun tolong serve tetamu.Dengan muka rambut serabai, aku bangun juak serve kek lapis Sarawak. =.=".... Sekali ku tengok orang di luar, punya ramai peserta program ya. Hampir semua. Gara-gara sorang miak ngikut anak angkat mak ku mau makan kek lapis Sarawak. Dia ajak kawan lain dia pula. Kakak ku suruh dia bawa semua geng-geng. Sekali tengok, semua datang. Sekejap datang pula group satu lagi. Punya ramai. Ada student UPM juga 2 orang budak laki cina. Kuat minum itu dua. Kawan dengan abang ipar saya. Mereka dua dari KTP. Hermm..KTP. Tengok rambut-BOTAK. Terusku tanya, ikut SUKSIS ka ni. Mereka jawab ya. Hahaha.. Terusku balas balik, 'patutla rambut botak'. Senang ba detect. Ohya.. Bujang sigat ya ada masuk rumah ku juak. Pas abis layan mereka tu, aku sambung tidur. Bapa tengah layan sorang student Iban dari UPSI. Educated dia tu. Last last, ku balik rumah satu lagi. 

Malam ya terima mesej dari Cikgu Wong. Ikut planning the next day we will ambush Cikgu Dor's house and others. But unfortunately, dia sakit perut cirit birit. Tu la.. Banyak sangat rumah dia pegi. So macam tidak jadi saja kalu macam tu.

Gawai 2012

31hb 5 saya balik Sarawak. Flight pegi Sibu jam 1225. Hampir tertinggal flight gara-gara tunggu kawan yang lambat bersiap dan tersesat sekejap. Saya ngan room mate terpaksa lari-lari pergi boarding hall. Tak sempat mauk beli bun dan bread. Masuk ja dalam flight semua orang tengok kami. Malu nya. Hahaha... Sampai Sibu jam 2. DD sudah tunggu kat airport. Parent room mate ja belum sampai. Mula-mula tunggu kat airport, tapi dua-dua lapar. DD bawa pegi Sibu Jaya. Makan mee kampua putih. Sedap..... Jalan-jalan sekejap dekat pasar tamu. Teda benda mau beli. Kami pegi airport balik tunggu family room mate. Balik terus pegi rumah panjang sebab semua orang dekat sana. Mereka tengah memasak. Indai suruh masak sayur campur cuci pinggan etc etc. Sampai sampai ja suruh buat kerja. Lepas tu, saya bawa moto balik rumah untuk mandi dan rehat sekejap. Main dengan Amber. Semua dah turun. Tinggal saya sorang ja di rumah. Saya mandi rehat sekejap baru saya pegi rumah panjang. My Chinese family dah sampai dah. Makan, makan. Saya pegi makan makanan yang disediakan oleh orang rumah panjang untuk orang-orang rumah panjang juga. Makanan kampung. Disebabkan saya jenis sosial sikit di rumah panjang jadi saya ambik makanan berapa kali round untuk saya sendiri dan juga untuk abang sama wife. Ngajat karaoke sampai jam 12 tengah malam minum 'ai pengayu'(Air kesejahteraan). Lepas tu sambung balik ngajat dan karaoke. Ketagih Teringin sangat mau karaoke. Saya duduk sorang-sorang ja dekat ruai mak cik ni sebelum DD dan indai pegi meeting untuk 2hb ni. Saya pi sms kawan saya yang in charge karaoke depan sana tu. "Jum karaoke sama saya. Duet kita." Respon positif. Saya malu tapi mahu. Last-last saya karaoke juga. Hahahaha.. DD tengah baring dekat ruai kami, indai sempat jenguk dari pintu. Sebelum ni tak pernah karaoke lagi depan parent dan orang-orang rumah panjang. Selalunya, DD yang selalu karaoke wakil bilik kami. Kali ni, biarla saya pecah rekod sikit. Saya kan jenis yang sosial dengan masyarakat. *Puji sendiri. Duet dengan si Dunggau. Junior saya. Geng saya di rumah panjang. Duet lagu Iban, lagu Hailey Ft Winnie-Bungai Ambai Kesulai.

Habis nyanyi semua orang sana sik pecaya aku boleh karaoke. Hahaha.. Yala. Asyik DD ja. Boring la selalu bapa ku jak. Biarla anak nya mewarisi. kehkehkeh. 

Happy birthday

The clock strikes 0000 and today is 23 April 2012. Happy birthday to me! Yeah I'm celebrating it without my family around me, for the first time. Tears drop ok..

Wish list :
1. Plan balik gawai tiada halangan datang.
2. This Friday should be awesome as last Friday with the accompany of God.
3. I want to have a good relationship with God.
4. Bless me with good health.
5. Gives me strength.
6. Bless my study.
7. *To be added

Trust vs untrusted

Erm.. By referring to the topic it is very hard to trust people. Once you trusted him or her, and once she or he told others your secret it is hard for me to trust them for the second time. Before this I told someone about my secret. And then tiba-tiba time gurau2 dia tersebut rahsia saya depan kawan-kawan lain tapi nasib baik dia pandai cover. I know dia mau gurau-gurau dengan saya tapi itu adalah secret.

When it comes to secret it must be secret.

 SECRET - YOU CANNOT TELL OTHERS EVEN MENTION ABOUT IT IN FRONT OF OTHERS.

It just between us. Bear that in my mind. Ko cerita satu perkara dengan saya, ko minta rahsiakan. Ko minta saya rahsiakan betul-betul. Ko suruh saya janji lagi tidak bagitau orang pasal tu. Jangan bagitau orang lain pasal tu. Jangan sebut apa-apa pasal tu. Memang saya rahsiakan. I keep my promise till now. Saya tak pernah sebut apa-apa pasal tu and never mention about it even dengan ko pun kecuali ko yang sebut dulu. Lepas perkara ko sebut tu depan kawan-kawan lain, saya susah untuk percaya ko lagi walaupun ko hanya mau gurau-gurau.

As I promise I'll keep your secret so do you but you didn't. Then.. It is hard for me to trust you to share my secret with as you hampir terpecah rahsia. You see. Hanya setakat hampir terpecah rahsia saya sudah susah untuk mempercayai kamu apa lagi kalu kamu betul-betul pecahkan rahsia saya.

Scandal, jangan terasa saya. Past is past.

Mr Mr Mr

If you read my post kan Mr Allen, I don't know what is your response. Maybe you are going to be mad with me or speechless or regret like I do. Sorry ya if you don't like that post. But please understand the feeling.hee...

If you Mr Stephen read my post, maybe you will hurt, disappointed or mad(but I know it is very hard for you to be mad at me. I know you.) or menahan perasaan.

If my parent or my sister or my brother read this post.. Ehem... I will wait for their call. hehehehe...

And then, scandal Jai told me that I looked terrible during my secondary with my hair ceridak, cikai2 muka. Dia tanya macam mana la Stephen boleh suka ko ni.. Macam mana la si Allen suka ko ni...
Hei.... Tumbuk ko.

The end.

Thought To Be Spoken

I have a nice memory of you. It is very hard for me to let it go. I will never write the story of you and her because I don't want it to interrupt my story. I just want to keep the story of you and me only. I can write the story over and over again without getting bored but I will smile.

Letting go of someone isn’t nearly as hard as letting go of the memories. Cause when they’re gone, that’s all you have left of them.

How many times do I have to regret about the past? I know it such a wasting of time. I, maybe should NOT regretting the past but keep moving on. How? By having my friends with me. :)

If you spend your life regretting things in the past, before you know it you will have wasted your life on regret.


You can't lose what you never had, you can't keep what's not yours & you can't hold on to something that doesn't want to stay

Stephen, may be this is another reason why I want to hold you and keep you waiting.
Once you have been hurt, you are so scared to get attached again, you have a fear that every person is going to break you heart.

When I read this, I'm thinking. Give up or heartache?
Sometimes you just have to give up on people. Chasing after them is a heartache, especially when they don't try to meet u half way

Maybe it's true.
Sometimes you’re not afraid of letting go, you’re just afraid of accepting the fact that it’s gone.

Again and Again

Continue~~~~

Allen, in 2008, it was the first time we met each other during debate competition in my school. A day before my birthday. The first time I saw you, I know I'm falling in love at first sight. Your team is the government and we are the opponent. After finish, your team came approach us and shake hand. Then, we were watching other schools. I notice that you keep on turning your head back. How come I can notice that, because I'm watching you from the back there. hahahaha... After finish watching the debate, you guys were going back. And I make my move to pejabat warden with my friend to take speaker for poco-poco practice. And I saw you, your friends, and your teacher were sitting there. One of your friend waving at me and you just watching me standing at the door and I just smiling. That day, all I know is joy. But I don't know your name. The exact spelling of your name. I'm looking for you in the internet, friendster, facebook, myspace and etc. I ask my cousin about you whether she knows you or not. But it doesn't help me at all. I keep on thinking when I will going to meet you again. Putus asa dah aku. And my theme song for the story is Aku Sayang Padamu. That is why every time I sing that song feeling berabis.

And the next year 2009, we join debate for the second time. And we are going to see each other again for sure. When I heard SMK Kai Chung is our opponent, I think for sure you will join. And YES YES YES I saw you. You know how I feel that time..... but I have to cover it. Smiling. You and your team standing in the middle of the way and my team and I have to pass by you guys. I don't have the confidence to have an eye with you and I notice that you were watching me. Bila you balik naik van, I saw you smiling. Oh my. We never made the first move to know each other. 2009 is my last year in school. I can't join any debate to meet you. Putus harapan for me to see you for the third time.

And what? 2010 I saw you at Puspakom Sarikei. I'm taking a class for car lesson and we were in different class. Damn it. You were outside with your friends and I was inside with mum. The door was tinted with black. From outside you cannot see me but I can see you. Every second I'm watching you. I hope we can meet each other that one whole day.

One day, Edwin chat me in in fb. He found a new friend during his driving lesson which that new friend is his friend in his fb. I don't know why I'm being very kepoo ask for his new friend's fb. I check his wall and photo. Tengok punya tengok, I found a picture in his album. I click next looking for that face. I know it was A's face. I ask Edwin whether he know the guy in the picture. And yes. He knows A. I ask for A's fb. Before I add him, I think should I or should not I add him. Finally I add him. I told Edwin every thing. The same story I wrote here. He just sign up in facebook. The day I add him was fall on his birthday. The next day, he approves me. The next day baru dia post "Macam ku kenal jak" on my wall. He always go online late at night. Saya pun memang online lewat2. Sampai satu hari saya jarang online online lewat malam. Saya online awal pagi, dia pun tiba2 online awal pagi. If sapa2 online, we just leave a message there. hahaha... Tapi sayang hubungan kami tidak menjadi. Kami macam main tarik2 tali. Rasa itu ada cuma tidak diluahkan oleh masing2. Saya tau dia positif dan saya yakin juga dia tau yang saya positif. I don't know why why why he didn't make the first move even I had give so many clues. He wants me to do the first move? No I won't.

Your friend who becomes my best friend now, Jimbat told me, you macam orang gila searching for me in the internet, newspaper, etc etc. Always mention my name. Pendek kata, your friend said you are angau. Sampai Jimbat sanggup looking for me at KML. He wants to see what I have that had make you go crazy. I notice many of your friends add me in fb.

Dia kapel dengan orang lain. Brokenhearted. That time I was strong enough because I am not 100% sure about his feeling towards me before he made up with his gf. But after I knew it, I really disappointed.

Every time I write the story about you, I am smiling. How I really wish that I could turn back the time dear. I really wish for that. Really really.

What do I have to do to make you see she can't love you like me?
If I die then you will notice my presence?

I know I should not talk about this anymore. It is past. Every time I said this is the time I let him go, but you see. The story still there. Maybe the feeling still there too and that is why I want to hold Stephen and keep him waiting. Maybe he will say the same thing to me "What do I have to do to make you see Allen cannot love you like me? If I die then you will notice my presence, my love for you?"

And I notice something. They have one thing in common : The way they laugh.

Jimbat said "If d takut terluka, anang menaruh harapan yang tinggi agi. Maybe he is the one for you and maybe not."

I've been sitting here staring at the clock on the wall
And I've been laying here praying, praying she won't call
It's just another call from home
And you'll get it and be gone and I'll be crying

And I'll be begging you, baby, beg you not to leave
But I'll be left here waiting with my heart on my sleeve
Oh, for the next time we'll be here
Seems like a million years and I think I'm dying
What do I have to do to make you see she can't love you like me?

Why don't you stay? I'm down on my knees
I'm so tired of being lonely, don't I give you what you need?
When she calls you to go, there is one thing you should know
We don't have to live this way, baby, why don't you stay? Yeah

You keep telling me, baby there will come a time
When you will leave her arms and forever be in mine
But I don't think that's the truth
And I don't like being used and I'm tired of waiting
It's too much pain to have to bear to love a man you have to share

Why don't you stay? I'm down on my knees
I'm so tired of being lonely, don't I give you what you need?
When she calls you to go, there is one thing you should know
We don't have to live this way, baby, why don't you stay?

I can't take it any longer but my will is getting stronger
And I think I know just what I have to do
I can't waste another minute after all that I've put in it
I've given you my best, why does she get the best of you?
So next time you find you wanna leave her bed for mine

Why don't you stay? I'm up off my knees
I'm so tired of being lonely, you can't give me what I need
When she begs you not to go, there is one thing you should know
I don't have to live this way, baby, why don't you stay? Yeah, oh

Gila

I'm quite surprise that you boleh jadi gila because of me. If I see my picture that time, punya la bida. Rambut macam lelaki. Cikai2 mpu rupa. hahaha.. Adui... Ada juga orang gila2 ni. tapi aku kiut la time ya.. hahahaha....kihkihkih... How I wish I could turn back the time. Now, I don't see that we can be together. Maybe you have others and I have somebody waiting for me. AD, penangan d memang mendalam ba aku. Aku pan nda nemu nama kebuah.

To be continued ya... Lama dah ku online tu.

When I Say That I Love You

You feel that you are lonely
It doesn't prove that you are alone
You feel that nobody want you
It doesn't mean no one cares about you

Kesaksian

24/3/2012
Malam ni ada Malam Pujian dan Penyembahan CYC di gereja. Kawan ku cakap tunggu bas jam 6.45pm. Saya tidur jam 4++pm. Bangun 6.15pm. Tapi badan masih malas mau bangun. Kawan sorang lagi cakap exora ada dalam 7-8pm sampai. Saya fikir2 mau pergi ka tidak. Saya cakap saya ikut. Tapi masih baring-baring lagi atas katil. Herm.. Bangun dari katil, tengok fb. Fikir pasal PI. Saya ada terjumpa satu fb Warisan Sarawak di KL dan Selangor. Jadi saya try tanya macam mana mau pinjam barang2 untuk PI nanti. Good response from them.

Tengok jam 7.23pm. Pergi mandi. Tapi hati saya macam rasa mau dan tidak mau pergi. Tapi saya pergi juga. Sampai sana, memang hati saya kosong. Saya bermesej dan main game di hp sebelum event bermula. Sampai ada kawan tegur saya kenapa. Saya share sikit ja la. Memang hati saya tidak mau dan degil. Pujian dan penyembahan pun saya tepuk tangan ja. Mulut memang tidak mau nyanyi. Time pujian dari SIB Wangsa Permai, memang best mereka punya pelayanan. But my heart full of stubbornness even I like their pelayanan.

Dengar khutbah dari pendeta pun, saya dengar, dengar macam tu saja. Then, part paling saya tidak suka time part pendeta tu panggil ke depan bagi sesiapa yang mau menyerahkan hidup diri kepada Tuhan sepenuhnya. Walau pun hati saya tidak mau, saya paksa diri saya juga untuk pergi depan. Memang tiap kali ada doa2 macam tu, saya paling tidak suka. Kalau boleh saya mau mengelak dari tu semua. But I force myself. Force, force and force. Walaupun saya tidak bersedia untuk menerima semua tu, tapi saya pergi depan juga untuk minta didoa. Sebab saya fikir, maybe sekarang saya tidak mau, mana tau after I have been prayed by them, my heart will change. But tonight, after I have been prayed by one church member we have praise and worship again.

Tiba-tiba ja saya boleh nyanyi dan keluarkan suara. Siap angkat tangan memuji Tuhan lagi. Sebelum ni saya malu2 mau angkat2 tangan untuk memuji. Sukacita penuhiku! Puji Tuhan! Harap hati saya untuk esok masih sama terbuka dan terbuka.

By the way, Pastor SIB Wangsa Permai looks still young. Wow. Dahsyat. Mudanya dia jadi Pastor. Muda maksud saya sini muda macam dalam lingkungan 27 above umur dia tu. Before this I met Pastor yang agak berusia la. Tidak pernah nampak muda macam dia. Kehendak Tuhan untuk dia tu.

Kasih Masih Ada
Jonathan Prawira
Key: A

 A                E
Hanya Yang Pernah Merasakannya
F#M       E            D
Tahu Duri Dalam Dagingku
Bm            E       F#M
Ternyata Kaulah Yang Paling Mengerti
Bm           E
Rahasia Hatiku

 A                E
Walau Seakan Tiada Harapan
F#M       E            D
Kasih Yang T'lah Menjadi Dingin
Bm        E       F#M
Ku Suka Cara-Mu Memulihkan
Bm             E
Hatiku Yang Suam

Reff:
          A
Saat Yang Lainnya
E            F#M
Begitu Mudah Sirna
E            D
Kasih-Mu Ya Tuhan
E           A
Tetap Bertahan

E         A
Engkaulah Alasan
E        F#M
Hatiku Percaya
E         D
Kasih Masih Ada
E        A
Dalam Dunia

Dear Dendro's and KB's booster

Yes. I have my own penyunting-semangat-turun-kelas now. He is jeng jeng jeng. I like his eyes and his smile. Bagi semangat mau turun kelas tu. hehehehe... Harap-harap ni bukan perasaan yang serius. Kalau tidak, saya perlu bawa lagu Stevenson la ni nanti. Siti penanggur antara tua. Tapi kalu betul2 la macam sanggup juga saya ni. Cinta la katakan. Huahuahua... Ngok. Booster Dendro. Booster KB. Kelas lain tidak sama pula. Herm.. Tapi tidak la. Tidak bertuah dia nanti dapat saya. Why? Because this is what fruit I should reap for what I had planted before..

Saya jeles dengar satu cerita dari kawan saya. Erm.. Tidak apa. Kebahagiaan mereka kebahagiaan saya juga. Enough of one tear drops now. Keep it as a memory. Once you meet the one that once you loved, bless him because isn't blessing people is great. Isn't friend is better than deep relationship. No. I won't let that friendship gone.

One by one, leaving. From what I see. Tanpa mereka niat. Saya pun just let it be that way. No need to tell every one. Keep it by yourself. I must have that emotional smart, from what my lecturer said. Emotional smart where you can keep everything by yourself. Go for emotional smart. Deep in my heart, the heart is seeking for love, intention and attention to be loved and care. But I refuse. I don't like it. I got one now, but I can take it.

Thank you.

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid
I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

Relieve Everything In One Way by....

crying. It is just that I can do for this moment.

1st, I don't want to have any responsible in any event that I dislike.
2nd, the situation here is weird. I'm not comfortable living in this college.
3rd, hemorrhoid. I wish you will grow until level 4.
4th,not good to be shared here.
5th, not good to be shared here too.
6th, my heart is missing home.
7th, I want to have a home food.

I really want to give out everything by crying.
Die is the word always came across my mind this week. But I look at Him. But again, my faith is not very strong.
What if I die tomorrow? Many things will be end. No need to think much. Everything will go fine and smooth. I can have rest for the whole of my life. And the most important is I don't have to think about my past. The fruit that you have to reap before. I don't have to face that. I wish the last person I want to capture in mind is my mum. I don't have to see their wedding. Love won't change anything for now. It just because of me. Will be okay is not a promise because the situation was changing even we act like normal in front of others.

It Is Good To Be Home

Sampai Sibu at 1048am. My dad fetched me at the airport. On the way home, my dad asked me whether I want to buy durian or not. I said don't want but when I saw lot of longhouse people sell local fruits beside the road, they sell durian, isu(a type of durian but doesn't smell like durian), rambutan, langsat and etc. I want to isu. Then my father bought 6 buah isu and 3 durians that cost him for RM24. Quite cheap right compare to KL. At first the price for 2 isu rian is RM5. My father didn't do any tawar-menawar but that uncle secara automatik dia kasi RM4. Dia cakap, "RM4 tau meh.(RM4 also can)." Mereka suruh beli langsat. "Meli lensat Endu. Tau sepi tu. Nda meli nda ngawa.(Buy the langsat. You can try to taste it. If you don't want to buy, it is ok.)" He gave me satu gugus langsat. Tapi saya tidak beli. From that you can see how nice people in Sarawak. That is why I love Sarawak more than other places.

Sampai rumah, saya pegi check saya punya kebun saya tepi rumah dan pokok-pokok buah saya. Kebun sayur saya sudah dikasi bersihkan. Sayur-sayur yang dulu sudah mati. Ermm... Saya tau, indai saya tentu tunggu saya balik untuk uruskan kebun tu lagi nanti. Jambu batu pun banyak buah dia. Quite big in size. My lemon tree grown big already. My mata kucing tree, still the same size. Daun pun berlubang-lubang.

That afternoon, my mum came back from school. We had our lunch together. Story mory. She noticed my finger nail. It is purple in colour. hahaha... She said, " Cat ya kukut ya. Mayuh macam pengawa." I said, "Heeheheh... Nyauka habis exam ari nya ba indai."

That evening, I went to find rambutan. Heehehehe... Sedap nya rambutan. T

Dinner pun, story mory lagi. After dinner, story mory lagi sampai mereka tidur 10++pm.
Too many story to share with each other. I heard one not nice story at our longhouse. Suddenly, I realize one thing, I thanked God for giving them as my parent as they teach me with a good discipline, know how to get along with people, and respect longhouse people.

The next day, I went to school to accompany my friend to meet Cikgu Wong. I met Cikgu Dor. She asked me "How are you doing in UPM? Best?" Me answered, "Best Cikgu until I refused to go back. hahahaa.."

After that, went to Jakar. Bought myself mee kampua putih and mee tauhu. Hahahaha..

I was abandoned

Hahaha.. I was abandoned by him, the scandal. OK. Crap. He is away. Tomorrow, he will fly off to Kuching and Sarawak is not his native land ok. Balik awal daripada orang empunya tanah asal.. ceiii.. He's Sabahan. Many people misunderstood about our relationship. Yea. It is not their fault. Biasala.. Perkataan sastera dia, lumrah hidup manusia. If a boy and a girl are very close to each other and there is nothing else, but couple. BUT we are not a couple. We are just a best friend. Ya ya ya.. Tau saya apa ko mau cakap.. best friend tapi macam kapel kan ko mau cakap tu??? Tidak apa.. Tuhan dan kami dua saja tahu yang sebenar. We always said this "Kesian la bakal2 gf/bf kita nanti. Jeles dengan kita dua.. hahahahhaa". Orang yang saya minat baru-baru ni pun fikir kami kapel. adei... Ok la. Marah dia nanti saya post pasal dia.

Statement :
We are not a couple and not dating each other.
Sincerely, Debbie and scandal.

Read someone's blog. Dia always mention and talk about the same thing over and over again. Walaupun kau cakap general about that, but you have to think about others feeling. I know that is your blog. You can say anything you like there. But bear in mind you are a part of the family now. If you keep on saying that, it looks like you hate some of the family members. Hey... Past is past la. Kalau ko mau mengenang pun, sendiri sendiri la kenang. Tidak payah ko kasitau semua orang. It just like you don't or haven't respect the family members. Acceptance is there. But you? Still cannot get along with the members? Maybe ko orang yang jenis 'makai dalam' ku orang Iban. Or maybe I am a forgive-and-forget-little-one, try to do the best for others happiness especially for my own family? Because I have put my own family first after God. Some cases, maybe I'm very pengampun and forget the past just like that, but some cases no. But this is family matter. You must learn to forgive and forget. If you cannot get rid this thing, problem will be there. And I hope you delete the post before somebody else read it. The people you meant there have learnt a lot from her life. She is human. Mistake is there and I want to apologize for what that people had said and done.

I don’t forgive people because I am weak. I forgive them because I am strong enough to know people make mistakes.

~Forgive and Forget~
With love

Debbie : )

Tomorrow, final paper. Yeah!

Happy New Year 2012

Happy New Year 2012 people.
Sorry for being late for 7 days to wish this.
First post in 2012.

I have listed my 2012 resolution but don't have time to post it here.
Wait until I'm home. hehehe...


Every single person has at least one secret that would break your heart.
Yup. It is true. For me. My fault too.

Bye. Pray for my final exam. 2 more papers to go. 3 papers done, answered confidently only 1 paper not really.. 2 subjects got A already. Praise the Lord.